3 cycles = 3 failures

I'm started my period. Having a period is sooooo much worse when you want to be pregnant. It also sucks because I made the epic mistake of telling a couple of women that I work with that I'm trying and one of them asked me today if I was pregnant yet. It's like salt on the wound. I blame getting sick this past month. So now I'm on to investing more money into this and ordering some cheap internet ovulation predictor kits. We're also going to change the sex position that we've been in when Jay finishes. I realize that might be TMI. Oh well. Maybe this will be the cyle and I"ll find out on Christmas day. That'll be pretty cool.

CD 18 and no ovulation

I'm so irritated with my body right now. I started having a lot of cervical mucus a few days ago and had a temperature dip which indicates that I'm about to ovulate. Jay and I had sex for several days and my temps. went up and I thought that I ovulated. I started eating pineapple core to help with implantation. Well, I was wrong. My temp. had a big drop which means I did not ovulate. So now I'm worried that I ovulated in the last couple of days when Jay and I did not have sex. We're going to start again today and we're just going to have to keep going until Fertility Friend confirms ovulation. I have to stop eating the pineapple because it will make my vagina acidic. Jay said that we should have sex like teenagers. We'll do it several times a day and I'll be scared of getting pregnant and then I'll get pregnant like so many teenage girls do. It's funny but unfortunately that's not how it works. I'm also pissed that my cycle is going to be longer than usual now because I'm ovulating late.

Phantom Symptoms begin

FF has not confirmed my O day but I think that I either ovulated yesterday or Sunday. Either way our timing is good. Today I got nauseaus right before lunch. So of course my first thought is that I might be pregnant. This is completely absurd though since even if I did conceive in the past couple of days my hormones wouldn't be high enough to cause morning sickness. I'm hoping that I will be spared morning sickness and spotting this pregnancy. and heartburn. and water retention. Of course, I don't want constipation or hemorrhoids either. I didn't have the last two the first time and was very glad. I started eating the pineapple core last night. I have 4 more days of that to help with implantation. I'm just ready for an O date to be confirmed so that I'll know my chances and stop worrying about having sex.

sick

I've felt bad the last couple of days. My ear and throat are killing me. I had a fever last night and put it into my chart. Fertility friend then stopped connecting my temperature from yesterday which sucks.

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Cycle 3

Well, it's been a long time since I've posted but oh well. I'm changing the tone of this blog to be a TTC and baby blog. I started cycle 3 a few days ago and I'm very frustrated. I thought that I'd be pregnant by now. Every part of the cycle tries my patience. I'm either waiting to ovulate or I'm waiting to see if I'm pregnant. I bit the bullet and paid for VIP membership on fertility friend which is what I use to chart. I'm also going to eat pineapple with the core to help with implantation. If this cycle fails then I'm going to become more desperate and buy ovulation predictors. Let's all hope that it doesn't get to that point. I'm also done testing early. I did it with the last two cycles and it's just a waste of money. Thankfully I did only pay $1 per test though. I'm going to add my chart to this post if you would like to stalk it.

And now it's Tuesday

Well, I had a much better weekend than the last one. I got to relax a lot and spend time with family. Emma wasn't feeling well Sunday morning so we didn't go to church. I ate fairly well except for when we were at Dad's on Sunday where I had 2 cokes. As long as I'm not around any cokes I'm fine. I just can't resist when it's easily accesible. I've done well the last couple of days and worked out tonight. I weighed myself on Sunday morning and I had lost 2.5 pounds.

tired of being tired

I have been exhausted every Friday since I started working. I come home and just want to sleep all weekend. I wish my body would hurry up and get used to it.

kind of good

Well, I made fairly decent food choices today. I didn't workout because we got home late from shopping. I did get a lot of planning done at school today so that was good.

Daily Routine

So, here's my new daily routine.

Wake up between 5:15 and 5:30
Leave the house at 6:00
Drop Emma off at daycare
Get to school around 7:10
Work on grading or planning until class starts
Teach kids
Leave school at 4:30
Pick up Emma
Get home
Feed Emma
Relax
Give Emma a bath and brush her teeth
Put Emma in bed
Workout
Take Shower
Soak feet while doing internet stuff
Go to bed

I can honestly say that I'm never bored and so far I've been a much better teacher this year. I made good food choices and worked out.

bad start

Well, I spent my morning sitting at a stand still for an hour and a half because of a wreck a mile ahead of me. I missed 1st block but made it for the other three. I got caught up on my planning and I'm close to being caught up on my grading. I made good choices with food and used the treadmill. Hopefully this week will end in a loss instead of a gain.

bad weekend

Nothing really bad happened except that I ate like crap all weekend and drake coke. Oh well. I didn't drink any yesterday or today so, maybe I'm back on track. I also gained 4 pounds last week which I'm not surprised about since I didn't behave myself. Jay and I went to Savannah to take care of some things at his brother's house. We came back with a 50 inch flat screen, new speakers, and a PS3. We put those in the den and moved our old tv in the bedroom. I know that they say that's bad but, it'll be okay. We don't spend a lot of time watching tv. Things are still going well at school. I am very close to being caught up on grading and planning. I have to focus on planning tomorrow and grading the tests I gave today.

Thursday

Well, I am ready for the weekend. I'm not as tired as I was at this point last week which is good. Tomorrow I have to get caught up on grading and try to plan some of next week. We're going to Savannah this weekend which will hopefully be fun. I did not workout today because we went to my parents' and then went out to eat. So, I'll take Thursday and Friday off this week and start working out again on Saturday.

I love my new school

For the first time since I started teaching I have gone home in a good mood every day so far. The first days have been soooo smooth. It is a HUGE difference from the school I was at. The students are all respectful and work hard. I'm able to teach and enjoy the kids. It was not a good day food wise though. We had a short faculty meeting and were given a cookie. It was soft, and amazing so, I stole another. Oh well. I guess that as long as it doesn't become a habit I'm okay. I have stayed true to water though which is probably the best part. I think that I've lost my working out buddy. I've been good on the days without her so far so, I guess it's okay.

I suck

Yeah, so, I guess I'm not blogging every day. Friday, I came home from work feeling like crap and went to bed. Saturday, I layed in bed most of the day. Sunday, I got up and felt a lot better. I weighed myself and I had lost 11 pounds in one week!!!!! It probably was helped that I was starting my period when I weighed myself the Sunday before and was now off of my period. I also did not eat much on Friday and Saturday since I was feeling sick. But anyways, we all three went to church. Emma walked in the nursery but cried while she did it. She has been having a hard time adjusting to being back in daycare. She cries every morning when I drop her off and it kills me. The rest of Sunday was spent doing things around the house and then working out that evening. Monday, I had a good day at school and ate well and exercised. Today, I had another good day at school and ate well and worked out. I also got caught up on my lesson plans. Now I need to get caught up on grading papers.

Day 4

I am not ready for the students to come on Friday. I have sooo much to do and I can't print at school and I can't download the system that I need at home to print from. Maybe I'll get lucky and there won't be many meetings tomorrow. I ate pretty well today and worked out on the treadmill. I love our new setup in the garage. I watched an episode of The Office while walking and it was great. I put Emma's new bedding on her bed. It's Disney Fairies and she loves it. She was so excited about her big pillow and covers. She's adapting pretty well to her new daycare. I'm happy with them so far also. I'm feeling down this evening but that's probably just hormones.

Day 3

Today was my first day in my new classroom. It is beautiful and clean. I put my bulletin board up and I now have a Word Wall. I arranged the student desks and fixed my desk up. I made good choices with food today and worked out with Megan. I am now exhausted and very ready to go to bed.

Day 2

I had a successful day as far as diet and exercise goes. It was a very boring day at New Teacher Orientation though. I'm very excited about moving into my new room tomorrow and putting my bulletin board up.

Day 1

Well, today was a huge success. Jay, Emma, and I went to church in the morning and then went to a cookout at a friend's house. I ate less than I normally would have and only drank water. When we got home got Emma ready for bed and then worked out. I am now getting everything ready for Emma and I to start school tomorrow.

Starting brand new

So, tomorrow is August 1st. To a teacher this is the beginning of a new year. I will be at a new school in a new school system. I've decided to use this opportunity to make many changes in the classroom and be the teacher that I have always wanted to be. I have also decided to make changes in my personal life to better myself. I am hoping that these changes will make me healthier, and a better wife and mother. I am writing this blog to hopefully have some accountability. I will try my hardest to blog every day about exercising/eating right and the changes of made in the classroom. Jay and I will also be going to church every Sunday. I know that part of the problems in our marriage was due to not having faith or God involved in it. I'm very excited about starting this journey and hopefully somebody will be bored enough to read about it.